You may not know this, but ever since I got unwell during early 2009 at uni I have found it really heard to compose. Not being able to go with the flow and getting stuck all the time.
But, slowly slowly I am realising what I need to to do get compose my music freely and let it come out.
I have just started using Logic again, after I realised I am not doing myself justice by not using it as I should be using professional software. I ain’t used logic properly since my first term at Guildhall in Sept 08 and I made some cracking music around that time. I basically been in Limbo all this time not accessing my full potential.
I am also realising these days, how lucky I am to have gone to study electronic music at Guildhall, cause they taught electronic music professionally and gave real professional advice from people that actually make a living out of it. There was one time earlier this year when my elective teacher was giving me honest professional advice about the industry, software, livelihood etc, and was actually a good guy who was looking out for me, but I remember not liking him. But now I realise, I wasn’t ready to listen to him then.
It’s also taken me a long time to realise that I am a composer even though it says so in my bio.
Basically in a nutshell, I been in a dream I think all this time I think, and I am starting to believe in myself and making the choice to be professional about my music making.
There are so many things I want to try out as I am so talented at music, but who knows where my career will be, time will tell.
I think I am slowly becoming happy again lol, doing more things, and being responsible.
Love for all,
p.s. I hope one day I can tell you that I made it, doing what I love, earning a living and i dunno starting a family.